dearest guardian angel

really glad the day went off pretty nicely. though it started off with some fury, but i'm glad it ended on a peaceful note. told grandfather before i went out today to watch over me, and he did, as he always had. my dearest grandfather, he had always been my guardian angel.

i'm missing my grandfather very badly. it felt like it just happened yesterday, holding his hands, feeding him, talking to him. i still remember how he finished the food i cooked for him. a big regret, i cant have him at my wedding. i guess it's really difficult for anyone to completely understand the bond i have with my grandfather. it's ironic, i know he's still with me, but yet it's still painful to me that he is physically not around anymore. beautiful memories i have with him, that belongs only to me and him, and no one will ever understand how much i miss him, and why it's still so painful to me.